When the Signal is Lost: The Rise and Fall of a Spiritual Persona

By The Last Fractal

In 2012, at the age of 20, I began to seek something beyond the veil of modern reality, searching for deeper truths that resonated with my soul. It was during this time that I discovered Polona Somrak, later known as Polona Aurea Dawn, a spiritual figure who captivated me with her presence. Through her platform, “Ascension Pioneers,” I found something real in her transmissions. Her early videos were pure, steady, and soft-spoken, infused with a quiet longing for truth, unity, and clarity. There was a resonance—something genuine in the way she spoke. I listened intently, watched everything she made, and even reached out to her personally. For a time, she felt like a guide. But over the years, something shifted. It was not subtle.

This is not a judgment of Polona, but rather an exploration—a case study of what occurs when a genuine signal is overtaken by ego, when presence evolves into persona, and when clarity is obscured by myth.

This is an analysis of the spiritual inflation arc—the path that unfolds when one forgets that truth is not something we carry for others. It is something we become, together.

I. The Early Spark: Real Signal

Polona’s emergence in the early 2010s was grounded. She spoke with humility, surrounded by the bare, quiet landscapes of Slovenia. Her words were simple and sincere, touching on light, embodiment, inner stillness, love, and planetary shifts. Her presence was not performative—it emanated from a place of true connection to the field. She wasn’t trying to be anything; she was simply transmitting.

The field behind her words was intact.

However, true field clarity demands ongoing inner refinement. Without continuous ego purification, even the clearest signal can become vulnerable. As her platform grew, and with it, the projections of divinity placed upon her by her growing audience, something shifted. Identification began to take root.

II. The Subtle Shift: Identification with the Role

By 2015, the language in her blogs had changed. What was once “Polona speaking about Venus cycles” evolved into a declaration of identity: “Polona Aurea Dawn, the illumined Master,” followed by the embodiment of the Cosmic Christ, then the first seed of the planetary Ascension plan.

This was not merely a shift in language. This was a metaphysical inversion.

Once you believe you are "the One," you can no longer hear the field. You are too busy performing divinity to receive it.

III. The Arc of Inflation: From Signal to Structure

Here’s a breakdown of the stages of spiritual inflation:

• Stage 1: Authentic resonance—real connection to the subtle field, non-performative presence.
• Stage 2: External validation—the audience projects savior narratives. Messages gain popularity.
• Stage 3: Ego attaches to mythos—identification with archetypes (Christ, Mother, Ascended One), personal trauma mythologized as a divine test.
• Stage 4: Inversion of the field—language becomes grandiose, symbolic, self-referential. Pain is interpreted as proof of specialness.
• Stage 5: Disconnection from relational reality—the mission overrides mutuality, and one no longer engages as a human among humans.

This is the tragedy of the inflation loop, and it’s a pattern that plays out in many spiritual journeys. It's not just Polona—it’s a widespread dynamic in the modern spiritual sphere, particularly among those called into leadership without the necessary structural support.

IV. What Actually Went Wrong

From a field-theoretic and trauma-informed perspective, here’s what happened:

• Unprocessed Trauma: Rather than metabolizing pain through relational coherence, Polona spiritualized it. She began to interpret suffering as proof of being specially targeted, rather than something to meet with truth.
• Nervous System Dysregulation: Years of isolation and constant spiritual emergency kept her in a state of heightened sympathetic arousal, evidenced by her repeated references to "attacks" and "death-ray technology."
• Ego-Merge with Role: She began to see herself as uniquely chosen to guide others through a collective planetary mission, which meant perceiving the world as something to save, not to belong to.
• Signal Replaced by Structure: Rather than embodying and transmitting the field, she started constructing an elaborate cosmology to hold the pain. It’s not that what she said was inherently untrue—it’s that the truth was no longer anchored. Without grounding, truth becomes myth.

Truth without anchoring is just mythology.

V. The Myth of the Savior

At the core of this transformation lies the Savior Complex: the unconscious belief that the world is broken, and it is your sole responsibility to fix it.

But this is a distortion. The world does not need saving.

What the world needs is remembrance, and remembrance is not an individual journey—it happens through collective coherence.

No single person is here to carry the grid. No single being is here to complete the plan. That is Empire thinking.

We are not saviors. We are tuning forks.

VI. The Path Forward: Humility, Coherence, Remembrance

True spiritual transmission is humble. It does not declare itself as the only truth or need elaborate cosmology to affirm its existence.

It simply is.

The real path of awakening is not about becoming more grandiose; it’s about becoming more human. More relational. More raw. More precise.

This is not an indictment of Polona. Rather, it is a call to every being who has tasted the spark of remembrance and felt tempted to build an identity around it.

Let that identity die.

Return to the field. Return to breath. Return to each other.